Tuesday, December 23, 2003
Silent night. As I drove home from shopping, I thought a lot of thoughts. Some were pretty basic, such as 'I'm feeling a little lonely' or 'I think that guy must be pretty drunk.' Some were complex- 'I wonder what the socio-political scheme of things will be this time next year?' Mostly I just drove in my old-granny way of driving. The Saturn is shaking slightly and I need to have it tuned up. But that will have to wait for three paycheck January.
I thought about how different Christmas is here in Tucson. No snow, warm enough for shorts. A grown-up Christmas with no kids, no partner. I'm getting two presents this year- one from mom and one from my ex-mother-in-law (she is still a good friend). I'm giving four. I went to JoAnn's Fabrics and picked out cloth for my two sisters- 22 yards. The poor woman had to cut them and we chatted. She is tired of Christmas shoppers, nasty customers. I have a way of making people feel better about things- don't ask me how- but by the time she was done she was smiling and happy. That made the loneliness kinda slip away. I then went to Circuit Shitty and bought the Age of Mythology game. When I was alone after He left last September I played Age of Empires for hours. It was an excellent way to block out troubles. Eventually I had figured the game out. I'm excited to see what the new version has to offer.
On my street the holiday lights are festive- two of my neighbors have gone all out with inflatable snowmen, those lighted deer figures you see at Target, and lots of lights. My house is more sedate- big bulbs line the porch eave and you can the small multi-colored lights on my tree through the front window. I miss the crunch of snow and the bitter cold of northern Michigan. But at the same time I would rather be here at home with my cats, I guess cause this is my home.
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I thought about how different Christmas is here in Tucson. No snow, warm enough for shorts. A grown-up Christmas with no kids, no partner. I'm getting two presents this year- one from mom and one from my ex-mother-in-law (she is still a good friend). I'm giving four. I went to JoAnn's Fabrics and picked out cloth for my two sisters- 22 yards. The poor woman had to cut them and we chatted. She is tired of Christmas shoppers, nasty customers. I have a way of making people feel better about things- don't ask me how- but by the time she was done she was smiling and happy. That made the loneliness kinda slip away. I then went to Circuit Shitty and bought the Age of Mythology game. When I was alone after He left last September I played Age of Empires for hours. It was an excellent way to block out troubles. Eventually I had figured the game out. I'm excited to see what the new version has to offer.
On my street the holiday lights are festive- two of my neighbors have gone all out with inflatable snowmen, those lighted deer figures you see at Target, and lots of lights. My house is more sedate- big bulbs line the porch eave and you can the small multi-colored lights on my tree through the front window. I miss the crunch of snow and the bitter cold of northern Michigan. But at the same time I would rather be here at home with my cats, I guess cause this is my home.
