Wednesday, January 29, 2014
I drove home later than normal, held up by a meeting. The sunset was gorgeous.
Tucson sunset, through the windshield.
I think I had my mid-life crisis today, thinking about something. I talked with Forrest about life and things, it was nice to catch up with him.
A few minutes later.
I feel like my life is on hold every winter. It is hard taking care of my mother- extra cleaning, all the cooking, watching out for her when we are public. She totters around slowly and gets lost in stores, cannot figure out where to find the front. She isn't getting senile, she just doesn't care to remember.
I've been going through my box of photographs and scanning the older family photos to post on Ancestry. I used to take pictures of family photos- and I have come across a bunch that probably ended up with my one uncle, the one who wanted everything. Glad I was smart and took those photos myself. Strange to handle actual prints in today's digital world.
Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and thoughts race through my head. Things I cannot change and things I have no control over. I've been doing a lot of reading- you can only sit in front of the computer for so many hours a day. It calms the mind down and after an hour I go back to sleep. If I doze too long in the morning, nightmares show up. Usually Puff and Joey wake me anyway, tentatively prodding me with their paws to get me to pay attention.
So anyways, not sure whether my day-long mid-life crisis will come to anything. It certainly has me thinking about what is important and what isn't.
I think I had my mid-life crisis today, thinking about something. I talked with Forrest about life and things, it was nice to catch up with him.
A few minutes later.
I feel like my life is on hold every winter. It is hard taking care of my mother- extra cleaning, all the cooking, watching out for her when we are public. She totters around slowly and gets lost in stores, cannot figure out where to find the front. She isn't getting senile, she just doesn't care to remember.
I've been going through my box of photographs and scanning the older family photos to post on Ancestry. I used to take pictures of family photos- and I have come across a bunch that probably ended up with my one uncle, the one who wanted everything. Glad I was smart and took those photos myself. Strange to handle actual prints in today's digital world.
Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and thoughts race through my head. Things I cannot change and things I have no control over. I've been doing a lot of reading- you can only sit in front of the computer for so many hours a day. It calms the mind down and after an hour I go back to sleep. If I doze too long in the morning, nightmares show up. Usually Puff and Joey wake me anyway, tentatively prodding me with their paws to get me to pay attention.
So anyways, not sure whether my day-long mid-life crisis will come to anything. It certainly has me thinking about what is important and what isn't.
